On being afraid of change

Thursday's Thousandth Thought (TTT) #9 + Update about LKLs

Picture taken on the landscape as I was writing this piece.

Every December, I’m both psyched and afraid of the incoming new year. I’m also usually quite disappointed by what I’ve accomplished in the past year.

This year’s different.

I’m not so disappointed by the past year, although there were a few periods that weighed on me and my mental health¹. Overall, 2022 was a good year with loads of positives for me.

More importantly, however, I’m incredibly afraid of 2023.

I’m still psyched for all the opportunities I’ll get to live, but I’m also worried many things I’ve worked towards will fall apart. In a way, 2023 will be a pivot year for everything in my life.

Great way not to put any pressure on myself, right?

Well, that’s what I want to discuss today.

Our fears regarding life and the efforts we’ve put in. Our worries regarding our own situation. Our perspective on our own level.

Because, you see, I’m moving to Korea in a bit over a month and I feel less confident than ever about my level.

So let’s start with a confession.